lagu la lagu... huhu

Friday, December 25, 2009

lagu lagi... layankan aje laa... huuu

Grey Sky Morning

~Hanya Kamu~


dikala sepi
terbayang wajahmu
didepanku hanya ada kamu
kenangan yang terindah
sukarnya tuk ku lupa
hanya kamu

setiap saat
dan setiap waktu
bayangan wajahmu hanya satu
senyum tawa bak perindu
bermain dibenakku
hanya kamu

tak dapat ku menahan
perasaan ku rindu ini
tiada yang lain hanya ku ingin milikimu...

oh cinta
cinta di depanku
hanya kamu

hati tak tentu
jiwa kelabu
ku hanya ingin bersama denganmu
tapi kau tetap tak mengerti
janji tinggal mimpi
hanya kamu

setiap saat dan setiap waktu
bayangan wajahmu hanya satu
senda tawa bak perindu
bermain dibenakku
hanya kamu

tak dapat ku menahan perasaan ku rindu ini
tiada yang lain hanya ku ingin milikimu

ooohh cinta
oh cinta di depanku
hanya kamu

ooohh... oohh....

tak dapatku menahan perasaan ku rindu ini
tiada yang lain hanya ku ingin milikimu

wooowooowooowoo cinta
oh cinta di depanku
hanya kamu

ooo cinta
oo cinta di depanku
hanya kamu

Sunday, November 22, 2009

kelibat si penyair by Azlan & the Typewriter

Tajuk:Kelibat si Penyair

Di atas Kaca,
Terpancar Satu cahaya,
Berlari Ku Pergi,
Untuk Tahu apa Di sana,

Suara yang Merdu,
Memanggil-manggil namaku,
Wangian Terhidu,
Menusuk Ke dalam Tubuhku,

aaa-aah,
Oh-ohhhhh,
Oooh-oooh,

Yeaahhhyeah,
Indahnya Bila,
Ku celik mata,
Bagai hidup semula,
Kerana Dia,
Aku Begini,
Hidupku penuh Bermakna,
Takkan Lagi Mempersiakannya.

Di bawah langit,
Malam aku hanya sendiri,
Ku renung awan,
Airmataku berlinangan,

Tersentuh Hatiku,
Bilaku mendakap kamu,
Penyuluh Gelapku,
Jalan yang aku tuju,

aaa-aah,
Oh-ohhhhh,
Oooh-oooh,

Yeaahhhyeah,
Indahnya Bila,
Ku celik mata,
Bagai hidup semula,
Kerana Dia,
Aku Begini,
Hidupku penuh Bermakna,
Takkan Lagi Mempersiakannya.

Yeaahhhyeah,
Indahnya Bila,
Ku celik mata,
Bagai hidup semula,
Kerana Dia,
Aku Begini,
Hidupku penuh Bermakna,
Takkan Lagi Mempersiakannya.(2x)

aaa-aah,
Oh-ohhhhh,
Oooh-oooh,

aaa-aah,
Oh-ohhhhh,
Oooh-oooh,






sape2 nak lagu ni, bley mintak kt aku or download la sendiri... hahak..
Azlan ni bekas penyanyi Meet Uncle Hussain yg kuar parti tu... huhu..
best gak la lagu ni... credit to gepeng sebab promote lgu and ajar chord lagu ni
kt aku... huuuu...

Thursday, November 5, 2009

definition kawan... pade aku la...

salam... arini aku nk membebel la sket pasal satu bende ni... kawan... korg leh define kawan?... bg la sket... define kan kat aku ape tu kawan... aku pon ikot define skali la ni... hahak... perspective kite laen2.. pada aku, kawan tu luas die pnye definition... pada aku, ni antara definition2 yg bleh aku kuarkan... bnyk lagi sebenarnye kalau dikupas spektrum2 persahabatan ni... kawan... pada aku, kawan ni org yang kite care pasal die... ape yg jadik kt die, kite nk gak la tau... tp xde la sampai busybody... kite boleh cakap tapi xleh pakse... kawan... org yang kite slalu cite bnde2 yg terjadi dalam hidup kite... kadang2 bnde yg x penting pon kite cite... cam kucing kite kt umah mati ke... anak sedare kite gigit tangan kite ke... kite kne tipu ngn makcik cafe ke... bnde2 yg remeh temeh tp kite nak cite gak... kawan... yg time kite susah, kite cari die... time kite senang pon die ade bersame... kawan... org yang kite teringat bile kite tgk something yg familliar... cam kite tgk slipar cam croc, tapi bkn croc, kite teringat kt org tu... haa.. tu example la... kawan... org yang slalu kite refer bile kite de masalah... masalah tu sbnrnye senang je tapi fikiran kite serabut kan time tu.. so kite x dapat fikir straight... so kite refer diorg... kawan... org yang kadang2 x geti cakap depan2 kite... die ckp kt kawan baek kite, soh kwn baek kite ckp kt kite... tentang something yg perlu kite belek balek... kite ade wat salah kot tp kite x perasan... kawan... org yang slalu kite ajak teman kite g bli makanan, g jalan2 round2 bandar, g ngurat awek kt bandar, g lepak2 kt kedai mamak ke sampai 2-3 pagi ... hahahhak.... kawan... org yg slalu bleh lepak ngn kite x kire mase.. agak2 kite roger die je, die ok je kalo die mmg free... tp kalo die kuar ngn awek, mmg xbleh nak nolong la... hahahhaak... kawan... kalo kite kne pukul ke, kite msti igt die dlu... kirenye die ni mmg brani mati utk kite la... ni da kire brotherhood of brothers ni... mcm pekida la plak... ooooppp... cop2.... xleh kuar topik heh.... kawan... org yang kite senang lupe utang diorg bile diorg pinjam dwet ngn kite.... kadang2 kite igt diorg utang tp xtau da brape... sebab kite da x kesah ngn die... kadang2 die byr kt kite, kite siap tnye lg "dwet mende ni?", camtu la kirenye... hahahak... kawan... org yang kite nak have fun bersama... kalo x de die, rase cam x fun kite wat bnde2 yg mcm fun tu... mcam ade sumthing missing... tp ade gak negativity kt kawan tu... definition yg atas2 ni smua yg positive definition...smua org ade positivity and negativity diorg sendiri... sama ade korang sedar atau x, korang kadang2 bawak negativity kt someone tp kt someone yg len, korang bwk positivity lak... dissertation pasal friendship ni akan saya rungkai dlam kuliah2 yg akan dtg ye... kalau saye rajin... hahahahahak.... sbnrnye kite tau tu something yg negative... tp hati kite ni dah serabut ngn dendam la, dengki la, khianat la... sampai surface hati kite da diserabutkan dgn bende2 ni.... tp kt dasar tu, kalo kite fikir betul2, sbnrnye hati kite xnk wat camtu... kt hujung hati tu... tu la yg paling pure... kalo aer ni, ultra pure water la kirenye.... hahahak... tu kadang2 org yg mula2 masok politik ni, die bersih giler... bile da 2-3 tahun, die da nmpak "kotor" sket... cara cakap die da len... sebab mate die da kabur kt duit... tu x nmpk "kotor" kt baju tu... hahahahak... perumpamaan yg melampau... hiperbola dalam sastera tingkatan 1,2,3... tp x melampau sgt kot.... so, simile la... definition2 tentang kawan ni kadang2 ade gak di-round up kan sebagai kawan baek.. tp kadang2 x gak... so, ape yg nak ditekankan skrg ni, aku pon xtau sebab aku hanye pembebel... die da bebel2, pastu die pon xtau ape yg die bebelkan.... lu pikirla sendiri ape yg aku bebel ni... name blog pon bore babbling blog... hahahak.....

Saturday, October 31, 2009

cerita dulu-dulu... huhu...

salam... lame dah x update... so ni nk update la sket... terpanggil nak update ni pon sebab aku tgk cite korea... tajuk die snow queen... cerita die korg tgk la sendiri... mls aku nk cite... hak3... yg aku nk cite ni mase zaman aku mude2 skolah2 dlu... aku knl sorg pompuan ni... bek dan terlarang gak la die ni... mase tu form 4... aku stat suke die form 4 la... huhu... mase tu ade maulud nabi kt skola aku... mase nk blk tu, kitorang (aku dan kawan2 aku) nmpk die blk gak jln kaki... skolah aku dekat je ngn bandar... dak pompuan ni g bandar sebab nk nek bas blk umah die... tp biasenye die tggu bas lalu je kt jln besa.... tp aritu die g bandar... so aku follow la die... aku ckp kt membe2 aku, "weh, wa follow 'y' ni la"... 'y' bukan name sebenar... hahahak.... otw g stesen bas, aku, 'y' dan kawan2 die singgah kt satu kedai buku... so kitorg bli la ape yg patut... mase tu aku kire malu2 gak la kt 'y' ni... tp aku still bleh wat lawak bodo lg la ngn die... hahahhak... kt kedai buku tu aku beli pemadam ngn ubat pensel... aku igt lagi... nak dipendekkan cerita, lepas cam 2-3 bulan lps tu, aku confess kt die aku suke die... tp malangnye naseb... die mmg x suke aku... die anggap membe jek... aku down gler time tu... hahahak... tp xpe... aku suke kt die gak... pastu nek form 5, aku suke die lg... ntahla... cam xleh suke kt org len sebab aku still nmpk die dpn mate.... baru nk lupe je, msti ade terserempak... die kelas len tp ntahla... susah gler nk lupe die... time form 5, birthday die aku bg balang full isi origami bintang2... ni akak aku la ajar ni.... sampai x tdo aku mlm2 wat bintang... lps buat add math je, msti wat bintang2 tu... mak aku sampai marah2 aku sebab x tdo wat bnde tu... mane x nye... mak aku biase bgn kol 5, tgk2 kt bilik aku, aku x tdo lg... hahahahk.... akak aku yg time tu tgh blaja kt uum kne marah ngn mak aku sebab aja mende2 pelik tu... hahahhak... tp pompuan ni kalo x suke, die mmg x suke... si 'y' suke hadiah tu tp die mmg x suke aku... bukan benci tp die anggap membe je... huhu... pastu, aku cam down la gak...aku pon ulang kembali la peristiwa thn lps... aku g kdai buku tu balek... pada tarikh yg same... bli bnde yg same.... hahahahak... da cam singai lak bile pikir balek... cam same je ngn cite2 korea... bile down je, plakon die g tmpt yg penah pegi ngn org yg die syg... igt balek memori2 kt tmpt tu... cam cite snow queen la... hahahak... tu je nk cite... cite panjang2 kang bosan lak korg bace...eh.. ade org bace ke??? hahahak....

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

mari layan lagu zee avi pula... nak lagu, mintak aku...

Title : Is This The End
Artist : Zee Avi

Is this the end?
Why does it feel
like we'd only just begun?
I thought we were done.

I think I'll hang on
if you still want me,
but if you don't
I guess I'll move on.

But if you need me,
close your eyes and dream.
I'll give you back your key.
Will you be happy?

Said we'll leave it alone,
but I'll be here long.
And when I'm gone
I guess then we'll know.

*Interlude*

I think I'll hang on
if you still want me,
but if you don't
I guess I'll move on.

I guess I'll move on,
I guess I'll move on.



to all my friends

~remember how we laugh until we cry~

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

bosan?? xtau nak watpe?? click je link aku bg nih... meh men game... hahha

ni game best punye... masok, wat karakter, pastu lawan... jom join brute aku...

http://api-slumber.mybrute.com

ajak membe2, pakcik makcik, akak sebelah umah ke, awek depan umah ke, boyfren spare-part ke, datok gatal ke, men game nih... gerenti dapat fill up your time...

Saturday, May 9, 2009

aish.... bosang aku...

salam... bosan bai dok short sem ni... kalo kt umah ni, da kuar ngn dak2 g yamcha,
lepak cc malam2, lepak2.... hahha.... adoi.... termiss lak event thn ni...

nak story pasal time aku balek kluang aritu... ari kamis 30/4/2009...
aku tumpang omar balek kluang...tp sampai kl je la... uang ade dalam
sebillion kangkang kera lagi... baru leh sampai kluang... hahha...
kt pudu, bosan gler...da la aku xde tket straight kluang coz da abes...
aku lupe esoknye labor day... adoi3... tp dapat tket smpai batu pahat.. huhu...
bole la... janji aku nak balek... tggu bas kol 8.30 mlm...
bosan gler.... x macam ade lg 3 jam lak... so aku lepak la surau pudu...
hahha...kt ump g masjid skali je sminggu... tp xpe la...
dalam bosan2 tu seb bek ade org lyn aku...tq2...huhu...
lps magrib aku turun tros... pastu lpk terminal 1... bosan gler...

1st person
ade awek dok seblah aku... igt malas nak tego tp disebabkan bosan tahap gaban,
aku tanye.. "ko nak g mane?"... aku mmg bahasakan diri 'aku-kau' je
walaupun ngn org x knl... "dah sampai, tgh tggu kawan..ko?"...
aku pon cite la journey aku.. rupe2nye
die nurse tgh praktikal kt ospital batu pahat... ooohh...
aku ckp aku dari ump, pastu die ckp "budak pandai la ni?.."...
bdk ump pandai2 ke smua?? hahha... die ckp die org pahang... pekan...
aku pon ”oooo... ump ade wat kampus baru kt situ..”... die tau... huhu...
borak2 sampai jam kol 8.15...pstu aku ckp akunye bas kol 8.30.
"aku blah dlu ah"... hahha... igt nak mintak nombo (skill ni aku lom ade lg la) ... hahahak... tp die nye enset sekali n95 daaa... "ni budak2 up ni",pikir aku...hahha..


2nd person
pastu tgh tggu bas, aku knl lg sorg dak pompuan...
bas yg aku nak nek ni same ngn bas die... tp die ni dak batu pahat laa...
blaja kt kolej unity... aku pasan die
tgk2 aku so aku tnye la, "bukan bas ni ke?"...
die jwb "bukan2... ade lg 1 bas... bas 8.30 lmbt sket"....
pastu aku ade la sket malu2 kucing...hahahak...
pstu aku cam mals nak borak, aku lepak jaoh sket... huhu...
cam lari lak... tp aku pasan membe2 die tgk2 arah aku....
aku x tau la tgk aku ke x tp arah aku... tgk macam usha2...
mcm laki usha pompuan... cover2 sket.. hahha...
pastu bas da dtg, time nak nek tu la die tnye aku.. "batu pahat area mane?"...
so aku jwb la yg aku ni bukan org batu pahat... die tnye, "blaja lg ke?"...
akujwb la haah.. pastu aku tnye blk, "u?... blaja mane?".... sekali die jawab
"kolej unity".... aku pon buat trick 'oooohhh'(trik ni untuk org yg mcm tau tp x
tau)... hahahak.... aku tnye blk "ktne tu?"... huhu... kantoi la mmg x tau...
jawapan die mmbuatkan aku terkedu sket coz i was thinking about
asking her number... hahahahak... for more contact laa...
ni da mcm citer "how i met your mother" lak... adoyai...
and die jawab, "kolej unityyy, kt damansara"... aku pon ... "oooooo"…
dlm hati aku ckp, "ni dak damansara ni.. budak up lagi...
apsal smua dak2 up je aku betembung ni...".... ahahhak...
so, aku x jadi nak mntk nmbo die... then borak2 skets blm dok seat aku...
then i never see her again after we arrived... huhu...

moral of the story... kalo nak mintak nombo org tu, mintak je...
jgn ade 2nd thought coz u never know whether he's/she's "the one" for you or not... so, if there is a 50-50 percent probability that you calculate after your assumption,
detailed calculation from the data taken from the site, physical and chemical properties,
outer characteristic behavior and lastly, instinct, that the person you encounter
may be your type or "the one" for you, just go for it... don't waste your days try
to regret all the actions that you made... hahahahak... tp xde la regret… cume aku ilang
2 kontek mlm tu... kalo uggly betty ni, ni da kire rugi da... hahahahak...

Saturday, April 11, 2009

legend... wait for it....dary.... hahha

salam... hadoi.... myspace aku... da stahon x bukak... sian kt membe yg anta message.... tarikh die bulan april thn lepas.... x bace2 message die.... sori la... connection utk myspace x brape nak ade la... hahha.... lgpon aku bukak myspace nak tgk band je.... time gig-a-tour dlu2... hahha.... td malam g makan kt satay zul... bukan zul nye satay... tp satay zul on the way g tc tu... hahha... sedap la gak.... tp agak mahal la... aku,omar,nuk, bahron,zul, ngn anip.... tp kenyang x knyang sgt... tp xde la lapa lg... bole laa... nk bwk family ke, awek ke, ok kot... xde la g kfc je, mcd je... hahha.... mmg legend.... wait for it... dary... hahahahk... aku skang lyn cite comedy... "how i met your mother"... mengisahkan seorang bapak menceritakan kepade anak2 die macam mane die jumpe mak diorang... hahha.... mmg klaka... aku pun nak wat camtu la nnti... nak cite kt anak2 aku cam mane aku jumpe mak diorang... msti cam klaka je kan... hmmm... insya-Allah la... kalau aku sempat buat... kalau x sempat, mmg x boleh nak wat ape la.... fate... everything's written... neither u or me could change it... if and only if you want to change it, if and only if you try to change it... coz Allah never change the fate of some people unless they try to change their fate themselves... barca won 4-0 on bayern... but liverpool suffers a 1-3 defeat at home... what the hell... they won with man u but lost with the bluueesss... yeah you heard me... the blueessss... hahha... i'm not a liver fan but many of my frens were... if it's hiddink, then the team often had a miraculous-strategies approach-no double standard picking players team.... i mean, if he's the manager of Malaysia's soccer team, maybe our Malaysian soccer standard would be much higher... and most likely leveled with korea (yeah... coz he once trained korea)... hahha... i do not know how to be good at football but what i do know is i'm quite a babbler... hahha... so much for the title... hahha.... laid back... my public speaking teacher tells me to laid back coz its gonna work on me she say... hmmm... i don't know... maybe i'm not laid back enough... hahha.... well, utk kate2 terakhir, layanlah "how i met your mother"... sebab die besssttt... hahha...

Sunday, April 5, 2009

i need you now..... really....

aku x tau la.... tp aku btol2 da macam serbe x kene dah.... teringat aku lagu nih.... lagu retro gler.... describe best what's in my heart right now.... part chorus la... hahha....


winger ---> (i need you now)

Here I am
At 6 a clock in the morning
Still thinking about you
It's still hard
At 6 a clock in the morning
To sleep without you
And I know that it might
Seem to late for love
All I know

[chorus]
I need you now
More than words can say
I need you now
I've got to find a way
I need you now
Before I lose my mind
I need you now

Here I am
Im looking out my window
Im dreaming about you
Cant let go
At 6 a clock in the morning
I feel you beside me
And i know that it might
Seem to late for love
For love

Guitar Solo

[chorus]
I need you now
More than words can say
I need you now
I've got to find a way
I need you now
Before I lose my mind
I need you now
More than words can say
I need you now
I got to here you say
I need you now
Before I lose my mind
I need you now

I need you now

Saturday, April 4, 2009

aku yang x bersyukur...

salam.... aku mmg seorang yang x bersyukur.... moga aku lebeh bersyukur lps nih.... penat dah hati ni mnunggu.... tp xde sape pun muncul.... terangi hidup aku.... they say that you should find a girl while you're still young... aku da find dah tapi xde pon.... ade tu ade tp sgt sukar..... even better man than me pon aku rase susah nak dapat lagikan aku... nk cube tp malu gler.... takot kne reject lg... then, spend the rest of my studies babbling about this stupidity.... why am i like this??.... sucks to be me.... i must find the right person now or else it will be difficult for me then.... must find the person that my mom would "approved"... hahha... hope to find one before i graduated... hadoi3....

Sunday, March 29, 2009

jom heboh yang x brape heboh la... hahha....

salam.... smlm g jomheboh kt kuantan... xde la ramai sgt... dpt tgk artis sofaz ( "yang" aku layan) hahahahak... sedey2... diorang tepok pakai record nye tepok... fans xde tepok sgt pon... bile tanye "ape kabar org kuantan?"... xde org jawab... hahahahak... sedey2.... tp dak2 ramai yang bejoget...ni da high sgt la nih.. sampaikan lagu sofaz pon ley lompat2.... hahahahahak.... ngutuk je aku ek.... pastu bli aer dutch lady 4 botol rm10... bole la.... aku, megat ngn izwan .... pastu masok umah keliwon... hadoi2.... 2-2 belah tangan aku kene pegang time kt dalam tu... x bole blah... kalo pompuan xpe gak tapi laki... tgn kanan aku izwan pegang(takot benau die ni)... tgk2 tgn kiri aku, mamat depan aku yg pegang( adoi, men sebat je... igt membe ko pe)kt dlm tu gelap so x nmpak ar... siap bley salah jalan lagi... antu die nampak gigi je... len smua gelap... punye la "scary"... tegelak2 aku.... hahahak... mlm smlm x join pon earth hour... tp nmpk la kk1 ttp lmpu... ternet umah aku prob la... cam haram.... nak men dota ngn sebe org luar pon x leh... hahha....

Monday, March 23, 2009

kadang2 aku emo, jage2 ar... hahha

salam.... hahha... korang penah emo?? membe bnyk nganjing ke, jd emo giler ar.... aku ikot mood ar... agak2 diorang ngnjing soft spot cam family aku ke, mak aku ke, aku mmg rase nak tibai muke seko2... nak nganjing pon igt2 ar... ade la skali ni..... budak2 smua nganjing aku giler babi nye... aku time tu rase cam nak angkat pemberat( istilah ni x betul ni... ni bnde yang nak kuatkan tangan tu... yang 5kg - 10 kg) , baling kat diorang, pastu diorang blom sempat tangkap pemberat tu je, aku tumbuk muke seko2..... ni imaginasi aku la... sebab pemberat tu sebelah aku je mase tu... hahha.... tp aku pk2 balek, membe2 je ni... hahha.... mcm cite buli lak... bile afdlin kne buli je, die imagine die menang... tp hampeh... imagination ni kadang2 bahaya gak... kot2 mane tau aku leh terbuat ke?? haaaa... tp kalo orang cabar, mmg nak kene laaa... hahha....

Thursday, March 19, 2009

malas nye nak stadi nih.... (-_-)zzzzzzz

mari tido, jgn stadi... hahha... pci la pci... cam haram... aku layan lagu atas nih... best2... lirik yang senget tu ditujukan untuk seseorang... hahha... bukan ko la...

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

lagu sky chord - bleach ending theme

Romaji Sky Chord ~Otona Ni Naru Kimi E~

Sunao na uta ga utaenai,
kazari tsukete shimau kara.
Itsu kara konna ni raku ni,
jibun mamoru koto wo oboeta no.

Kotei kara mieru sora,
kimi ni wa nani iro ni utsu.
Tada maashiro na kumo demo toki ni,
maakuro ni kaetaku naru.
Ikanai SKY CHORD mukashii nara atta noni.
Kakushita SKY CHORD dare no sei demo naku jibun.

Kitto, otona ni naru koto nanka yori.
Taisetsu na mono ga aru no.
Kitto, sore wa mitsukeranai mama,
otona ni natte yukun da.

Asa made okite itakatta,
Modokashii kodomo no koro.
Ima wa jikan ni owarete,
nemuru koto sura dekinai de iru.
ikanai SKY CHORD, mukashii nara atta noni.
Nakushite SKY CHORD kimi ni oshiete hoshii yo.

Kitto, otona ni naru koto nanka yori.
Taisetsu na mono ga aru no.
Kitto, sore wa mitsukeranai mama,
otona ni natte yukun da.

Zutto, kono mama ja irenai tte.
Wakatteru yo arukidase.
Zutto, no oto ni ga iteta moji wa.
Kawatte nanka inai no.

Kitto, otona ni naru koto nanka yori.
Taisetsu na mono ga aru no.
Kitto, sore wo mitsukeranai mama,
otona ni natte yukun da.

Kodomo no mama ja irenai.


Translation
Sky Chord ~Otona Ni Naru Kimi E~

I can't sing a song with straightforward lyrics
Because It always ends with sugar coated words

Since when did someone as lazy as I am learn to protect anything?
What color catches you from the sky visible in the school yard
At times I want the white clouds to turn black too

Dont leave me *sky chord*, you would've stayed here back then
I've already lost you *sky chord*, this isn't anyones fault, however

I know there are many more important things than becoming an adult
But I'll be growing up the whole time figuring out what they are

I wanted to stay up till daybreak when I was a kid
Now being chased with time I don't even have enough sleep

Dont leave me *sky chord*, you would've stayed here back then
I've already lost you *sky chord*, I want to teach you

I know there are many more important things than becoming an adult
But I'll be growing up the whole time figuring out what they are

I know we can't stay like this forever, so let's take that first step
Those words I've written in the notebook will never be changed

I know there are many more important things than becoming an adult
But I'll be growing up the whole time figuring out what they are

For I can no longer be like a child